Then I chose to be

  I bravely one day decided that the change was now, here at this very moment.   I knew it was not going to be a fun park ride like those ones we enjoyed with cousins and siblings when we were little.   But I knew it needed to happen.   I weighed the possible outcomes for a long time and it just never was worth it to take the leap.   I found myself being more scared of the part where I needed to find me, than the things I had to let go of.   Here I was, so far wandered into a place that I did not know anything about nut where I have used every skill of survival to keep on going.   I was feeling scared, scared of meeting me again.   I have forgotten who I was.   I knew certain things about myself, but I have forgotten who I really was.   You know that one person you met as a child, you knew them for this friendly face and knew they had some kindness because they always made you feel at home in some way, but then after years you see them a...

  Taking a glance back on how I got to where I am, the here, the now, this very second of this very day.   Yes, I have made many, actual numerous, so-called uncalled for mistakes.   Some of which I cannot really remember making the actual choices.   I know thinking back on the surrounding happenings of those specific situations that I was ultimately, not at all, consciously aware of how I felt and what the implications of the choices were.   But I am okay with that, now.   Only now that I have seen that no matter what any situation asks from us, that the Will of God is so perfectly implemented in our lives, that no matter where you are, what you decide, deciding not to decide, still takes us to that one perfect, imperfect little moment when we can look back and say, this is where I was meant to be.   This is what life expected from me.   Even when I failed miserably, I failed like I was supposed to.   I paid the school fees; I earned that deg...